AmAndA

My Birthday Bitches.

Wed, 02 Feb 2005 21:00:48 GMT

Im 19 years old today.
woohoo.
feels just like 18.
well i want u all to make me a mix cd. WITH ANYTHING on it. I love mixes.
Anyways hope u all are well.

cya.

arg

Tue, 11 Jan 2005 19:54:13 GMT

Im still fucking sick. Tonight i work from 4-11 and im running a fever. Plus i have to bus tables. Gr SHOOT ME NOW..

I have a Myspace account now so add me. I guess u need my email. vacantskieshere2@hotmail.com
See you there...

--AMANDA

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 15:53:51 GMT

Merry Christmas Kids!!!

i hope you all have a very safe and lovely holiday.

<3 Amanda

wonderfulness/

Thu, 23 Dec 2004 07:02:52 GMT

SO yea..everyones back home for christmas.

I got to see Marta today.She came in to Cicis for a bit hoping for some Pizza but we closed early.SORRY!!. We talked about college life and stuff for a bit. I miss her! Shes such an awesome chick.

Yesterday i got to hang out with the lovely Jeromy. I had definately missed him. We just drove around and wathced like 10 minutes of the Chapelle show at my house. It was nice. Hes sad thoguh. It'd be nice if he cheered up.....ALOT. i'll think of something..

I talked to andrew today. ..i love andrew....that hypocrite :)

The cicis party was nice. I got nice Bath and Body works stuff from Christy and some cute Hot Topic corset and thong.wooo

btw Im gonna kill corey taylor.

That is all.

just wanted to say ...

Mon, 13 Dec 2004 19:40:45 GMT

Happy Birthday to the lovely and not so slutty TIFFANY! heh
I love u darlin and i do wish i could hang out with ya more but school+ work is hell. I hope u have an EXCELLENT birthday and i PROMISE we will hang out more when this Finals week is over.

Ok now for a little dilema of mine...

So ive been asked to be a roomate. Me and Belinda both. Its this cute little house in Red Bank on Easton Avenue. Its only $200 dollars a month( really 600 hundred but between 3 its 200) Jamie is the one that is moving in there. Shes my 30 year old brothers ex. Shes a really neat girl. Shes 25 and has a pretty good job. She really wants us to move in there with her. Last night bam picked me up from work and we drove there. We walked inside and it just made me happy because it would almost be a place of my own or no parents at least.

Alright now for the problem.....

When we told our parents ..my dad cried and my mom asked "u have it made here why do u want to move out".

Im so confused. Its such an awesome idea to be out on ur own rather than still living under the roof ive been under since i was born. Plus since its in red bank i'll be closer to friends, school, and work.

Hmm Please someone give me reasons why i should or shouldnt more out.

Jamie said we have until tomorrow to figure out whether or not we want to move in.

Belinda wants to move in but not for another 2 monthes just so we couold save some money and such.

hmmmm I'll be 19 in february , i really want to be on my own for once.

on a better note...my lovely boyfriend bought me the new TBS cd. I do really like it. I've defintely missed them.

Well i love u all. Be safe.

Ahh

Wed, 08 Dec 2004 14:02:37 GMT

Thank God this semester is almost over.
I think im probably doing pretty well in most of my classes minus the stupid one i never attend to anymore. heh.

These last few weekends have been interesting. Zane has been in town. gr. but i guess everything is neat between us and everyone. We no longer have any problems with each other.

Gr next week are finals...im NOT ready.

Well I am going to start on a diet. I feel like such a cow right now and i NEED to be in shape by feb. since im going to stay in a cabin with a hot tub in Gatlinburg. Im very excited about that. Plus i think rachael might go , and that would be neat so just Jasper folk wont be goin. So yea, salads and water for me.

I miss everyone and hope everyone is doing great. I know i'll definately be seeing most of u towards the end of Dec. since school ends. yay

<3 Amandas

grr

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 14:06:30 GMT

I am extremely dissapointed ......
.....extremely.

Can't wait till im 22.

woo

Fri, 29 Oct 2004 13:02:53 GMT

Im so excited for tonight.

We all get to dress up at Cicis.

I got a cute Nurse costume im gonna wear plus im bringing a ton of shit for some co-workers to dress up into.

Rachale came to school dressed up as an Indian today. Shes too cute.

Im glad to see alot of people at school dressed up., i wish i did.

Well EVERYONE come see me TONIGHT! 5-10

Love u all
AMANDAS

Fri, 15 Oct 2004 13:20:38 GMT

see: lots of computers
I need: sleep
I find: that i have a ton of work to do
I want: to see Matthew
I have: a cold
I wish: i wouldve seen Hunter last week.
I love: my lovely friends
I hate: having so much work to do.
I miss: my friends.
I fear: that i might not do well in college
I feel: tired

I hear: people typing
I smell: my shampoo and Sweet Pea
I crave: to be HUGGED!
I search: for my library book.
I wonder: what im doing this weekend.

I regret: not going to Fathom friday.
When was the last time you ...

Smiled?: this morning when i saw XAVIER.its been forever.
Laughed?: This morning. Joesph is a FREAK.

Cried?: a while. Back when all that Zane shit was happeneing

Bought something?:yesterday/..AMIGOS
Danced?: I dunno.
Kissed someone?: last night.
Talked to an ex?: this morning
Watched your favorite movie?: two days ago.
Had a nightmare?: i dunno.

A Last time for everything ...

Last book you read: The Psycological Treaments Of Alcoholism.
Last movie you saw: SAVED!
Last song you heard: Story Of The Year-Until The Day i Die
Last thing you had to drink: WATER!

Last time you showered: Last night
Last thing you ate: mom's taco bell style tacos.

Do You ...

Smoke?:yes
Do drugs?:Not anymore.
Have sex?: Yes sir.

Sleep with stuffed animals?: yes sir.
Live in the moment?: kind of.
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: I think i do. Or we are dating or something.
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: yea it had Pennywise in it.
Play an instrument?: no
Believe there is life on other planets?: kind of.
Remember your first love?: yes sir
Still love him/her?: no sir
Read the newspaper?: yyes sir
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: Yes sir.
Believe in miracles?:yes
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: i do.
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: Not all the time
Consider love a mistake?: nah
Like the taste of alcohol?: YEs sir. Bud Light By god. lol
Have a favorite candy?: Yes...i like lemon heads and rolos
Believe in astrology?: mayb
Believe in magic?: nah
Believe in God?: Yes sir ree
Pray?: yes
Go to church?: not as much as i use to
Have any secrets?: a ton
Have any pets: yep two dogs and a cat
Do well in school?: i try
Go to or plan to go to college?: Chattanooga state
Have a major?: Early Childhood Education
Talk to strangers who instant message you?: sure
Wear hats?: yes bogans are cute
Have any piercings?:nose, naval, ears
Have any tattoos?:nah...not yet
Hate yourself?: not atall.
Have an obsession?: music.
Have a secret crush?:nah
Do they know yet?: no
Collect anything?:frog stuff and star stuff
Have a best friend?: Yes sir.My sister and Rachness
Wish on stars?: sure
Like your handwriting?: yes
Have any bad habits?:yes , im too sarcastic at times
Care about looks?: yea ..for myself
Boy/girlfriend's looks?: nah,. hes always adorable.
Friends and other people?: noo they are beautiful.
Believe in witches?: nope
Believe in Satan?: i guess so.
Believe in ghosts?:yea

Everyone should fill this out

<3 amandas

Need More Sleep.

Wed, 13 Oct 2004 13:45:37 GMT

So yea, this week has been uneventful so far.

I did buy my halloween costume though. We get to dress up at work so i bought this really cute nurse costume. Its too short though so im going to try and find a white overcoat thing to go with it. I think theres a place that sells nurse uniforms and stuff so hopefully they have one.

Monday night i got to see ANDREW CORE. it had definately been awhile since i had seen him last. I was leaving work and on my way i hear someone honking their horn and flashing their brights so i pulled over. I was kinda scared because i didnt know who it was. BUT it was Andrew. woo.

We went back to my house and watched ETERNAL SUNSHINE and reminised on the past. I miss that kid. We always hang out for a week then loose touch for a month then see each other again and hang out and so on...its crazy.

Eternal Sunshine.....such a good crazy movie. Whoever directed it did a wonderful job. I reccommend every one to see it. BUT u must watch it alone and dont miss any part or talk because it will throw you completely off track.

Have a lovely day people.

<3 amandas

Thu, 07 Oct 2004 13:52:35 GMT

Big Psycology test today.....ive been studying since YESTERDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

I better make a WONDERFUL A on it or im killing someone.

I will be attending the MVT show tomrroow. Im very excited to see Hunter play. I just need to find someone togo with meh. I might be attending it with th elovely AMBER, but i dont know if shes going to come down early enough, But even if i dont find anyone to come with me, i will be there no matter what.

Shoppin yesterday was fun. Lotsa good sales at Express and Aeropostale.
I bought the BEN FOLDS FIVE cd. They are so good.
I also bought the Ryan Cabrera cd for matthew just so he'd stop singing that annoying damn rap song.

well time to study again.

Much love.
Amandas

BTW on oct. 23 a bunch of chatt state folk are going to a haunted house so if u wanna go let me know. It'll be fuuuuuunnnnn.

Wonderful Weekend

Mon, 04 Oct 2004 13:25:43 GMT

My weekend was lovely.
Friday i spent the night at Matthew's house (Tony P). We tried to watch Eternal Sunshine BUT i was too drunk to comprehend and Zane kept calling. SO he came over and i was dreading it. I dunno, it wasnt too bad. I was being nice to him because i was drunk i assume. It was about two so me and matthew went up stairs to "go to sleep".
I didnt wake up till 12 the next day. I felt like shit. heh, im pretty sure i looked like it to.

Saturday i spent much of the day sleeping and recovering from the previous night. Then i woke up around 4 and took a shower and got ready and such. Matthew came and picked me up around 9 to go to a movie. We saw Forgotten. It was stupid. Kinda creepy at times though. after the movie we came back to my house where Belinda and Travis were. We stayed outside talking till like 1:30. It was nice.

School is going pretty good.
Ive met alot of cool people. Im lovin; it. im kicking myself for being lazy though.i have a book report due in Nov. and i havent even got to page 20 in the book which is about alcoholism.heh.

Well i hope u all are doing fine.
<3 Amandas

five hours of sleep....

Mon, 27 Sep 2004 13:16:28 GMT

Last couple of nights have been crazy.
Ive been going to Jasper alot. Its acutally only 20 minutes from my house.
While i was down at Tony P's house, Zane decided to show up. :/
I really didnt want to be alone with him or talk to him. He pissed me off the night b4 b/c he called me stoned to yell at me because he found out me and tony P kissed. Hes such a hypocrite. So yea, while we're there it seemed like everyone decided to go back into the house at once, when i got up to walk inside, Zane grabbed my arm and asked me to talk to him. BLEHHHHH. Im such a stupid girl when it comes to guys. Some stuff happened and he tried to get me to come to Nashville with him that night. I didnt want to go so i stayed in jasper. He told me "bullshit" im sure as he was leaving and said when he moves back here we'll be together.
.................................. i honestly dont know what to think anymore about him. Hes called me several times since then but i havent answered. I apologized to Tony P about that night too. I do like Tony P, but theres something about Zane that just makes my walls fall down and i just get so STUPID!!!!!!!
I'm very dissapointed in myself because of this weekend. I just try and see the good in people rather than the bad i guess.. Its weird. Zane is a cool person but he'll probably treat me like shit if we do get together.

Im a confused puppy.

The dog Lied.

I hope everyone is doing FANTASTIC.
School is going well. I havent failed anything yet :)
Im off Friday and Saturday of this week so lets make some plans people.
<3 Amanda

ahhh

Thu, 23 Sep 2004 02:03:38 GMT

My week has been grand.

Im no longer involved with fuckface Zane. I absolutely hate guys like him. Im pretty sure hes seeing alot more girls than me. When he found out i liked Tony P (matthew) he got pissed then "expressed his love for me" which is pretty stupid. Zane is such a loser!!!! I dont know how he gets the girls he does....i think its because he has money. Gr. I feel so stupid for liking him and putting my precious time into GOING TO MURFEESBORO to give him shit. Makes me feel icky inside. But one good thing came out of Zane....which is Tony P. Hes a neat guy and im thinking this might actually turn into something good sometime. He goes to chatt state so i get to see him quite often..plus Friday night in Jasper was amazing :)
I think im going to Jasper tomnorrow to see his sister in a beauty padgent. woo.lol.
I know that tomorrow Zane comes to Jasper. I REALLY hope we dont run into each other. That would be aWFUL!

Anyways....Tomrrow me and rachael better eat lunch togethr. I miss that girl. Shes so unique....:)

School is lovely.I skipped my first class today (gr). My friend Alisha convinced me that eating breakfast at Mcdonalds was more important.heh.
WOrk was so cool today. I did register so everyone who didnt come see me missed out on some freee food. lol. I swear everyone today realized me and Belinda were twins. It was funny. Practically every time we'd turn around , someone would ask us if we were twins. This one girl actually said we were "cute twins" haha. So interesting.

Hmm I miss everyone. I hate my stupid 40 hours a week plus full-time school schedule. Makes me feel Lonely. :(

well i hope EVERYONE esp. Hunter is doing WONDERFUL.
i love u all.

i love these things.

Thu, 16 Sep 2004 12:37:43 GMT

1. What's your favorite quality of mine?

2. If you could change one thing about me what would it be (be honest)?

3. Should i change my hair style/color/both, and what should it be?

4. If you could give me anything, what would it be?

5. Is there anything you want from me? What is it?

i stole it from Hunter and Jero's livejournal

Enjoy.

wooo

Thu, 16 Sep 2004 12:24:43 GMT

Well i guess a new update was needed.

I changed my icon. I stole it from someone on here. I watched that movie at Hunters house like two weeks ago and laughed my ass off when i saw the icon. That movie was definitely funnnnny.

So yea, im updating from Chatt States comp. I dont have the internet at my house anymore. I will sooon thoguh :). Plus i dont have a class till 9:30.

Lets recap the weekend k...
Friday Wade came up from Jasper and took me and belinda out to eat at Applebees. He paid for EVERYTHING! hes neat :) Then he took us to jasper where i hung out with the lovely Tony p, chase, travis and two drunk bitches. heh. I didnt expect to see Zane. I didnt want to. I was mad at him. BUT he called tony p's phone and he made me answer it. He was like "what the hell are u doin in jasper". heh. Then he told me he was coming in from Murfeesboro that night! gr.
Tony P seemed dissapointed. I think he likes meh. Well a ton of beer was bought. Bud Light :) The two drunk bitches cracked me up all night. They were only like 16 years old. They kept falling and stumbling. It was quite amuzing. its sad to think i was like that one day. I hung out with Alison alot. She kept telling me how incredibly cool i was. haha. Plus she was like "im sick of all this blond hair blue eyes bullshit-turn me into a punk" hahaha. that was to funny. Then Veronica ended up throwing up for like an hour . poor thing.
After about 7 beers me and tony p started doing the tango in his kitchen. It was interesting. i was pretty wasted. I also had a long conversation with Chase(an incredibly hot blue eyed guy with the nicest mustang i've ever seen). I dont remember it though.
Everyone started to leave so me and tony p stayed outside and talked about stuff while Belinda and wade were .....im not sure where they were.lol.
so ZANE shows up...
He comes up to me and hugs me as though nothing was wrong. That Bastard. We sat on the couch as he sarinated me with that damn A Perfect Circle song. gr. Then i spilt my guts on how he hurt me and such. Then we ended up making out so i assume everything is ok.
The next day i felt like shit. I slept till 5 which made me feel incredibly lazy. Then when i go pick belinda up from work, thomas that i work with tells me i look like shit. thanks.. Then hunter came outside and Gsjkfjlsdf. I didnt want any one to see me. My hair was gross..i wasnt wearing make-up.....gr
Sunday was a long day. I worked all day from 10-9. But i got a crazy idea.I wanted to drive to murfeesboro to see zane. SO i took belinda,tiff,and wade along with me. We all headed out at like 10 and had to get Wade from Jasper. He drove all the way there while i slept in the back seat. It was nce. Then we made it there but had a few problems with finding him. When we did we just sat around for a couple of hours and talked and such. It was pretty fun but the only drawback was the fact that i had school at 8 in the morning. So we finally left there at like 3. Tiff dfrove all the way home.She did good. We didnt make it back to chatt until 5:30. So i pretty much got an hour of sleep. It wasnt too fun.
Monday sucked. This guy i met at chatt state had committed suicide over the weekend :/ This made me incredibly sad. He didnt seem depressed or anything. I remember he would always come up to me and tell me to get my lip peirced....
Poor kid. I just wish there was some way i could go back and befriend him better and just try and make his life happier. gr..suicide isnt cool.

Now its thursday.
im having a better week. I guess me and Zane are together. He calls me almost everynight before he goes to bed and we message each other every chance we get. Hes a cool guy but i warned him on the hurting me thing again.
I got out of my stupid reading class , now im taking psycology!!! I love the teacher and the class. I love learning about people and how they tick.

Wel i hope you all are doing nice. Im sorry if i havent talked to some of u lately, schools been stressin me out, as usual.
Have a lovely weeekend and dont get blown away from Hurricane Ivan :)

<3 Amandas

so many people..

Thu, 09 Sep 2004 02:50:01 GMT

Today was eventful.

I went to school and had a very good first class.
My teacher is so awesome. He makes us think so critically, i love it. Plus he calls on me almost everytime hes got a question. Im not too fond of that but i have to get over my "shyness" someday.

My next class wasnt too fun. We did some stuff on the computer and then left early.
I hung out with the normal few for a while then left to be bymyself for a while. I saw Eric c. I said hi. He stopped, turned, then turned again. It was the funn iest thing i had seen so far this morning.lol
Anyways. i listened to a band play for a little bit today. the man had a lovely voice. Then i went to get my Student Id. Since i was in such a good mood, i decided to do a goofy like face. The guy that took my picture laughed at it. Heh, Im a loser. I also shared words with one of the hottest guys in that school. Meow. hes a coke head though.lol

So then i ran errands with pean and then stopped at the mall for a bit. I spent half my paycheck at Aeropostale and then i bought two cds.
One of which i used to have but it got stolen so ive been craving to hear it (Saves The Day-Stay what u are)
and the other cd im just obsessed with one song. A Perfect Circle. The songs called The Nurse who loved me. I heard it the other day at 3 in the morning and Zane practically sarinated me with it. :/ I love this song.

So yea, while im at the mall i run into a "friend". Ive never realized how immature and mean and rude she is until today. I wanted to scream several times while hanging out with her. She drives me absolutely nuts. Then when she made a remark like "i wish his baby would die" i simply looked at her and shook my head, and left. Shes a horrbile person.... It makes me sad though. She used to be cool, but it seems like no matter what, shes so negative....aboout anything and everything in front or around her. so so sad.im sure many of u will know exactly who im talking about..

I saw otehr people at the malll too,.Scoot gave me the cold shoulder(HAHAHAHAHA). I ran into Melissa G and Tiffany K too., I love them!!

well as im leaving the mall, windows down, APC turned up, BOOOM, hunter and david are outside the car!
We went to target and dq together. I got a free banana split from my friend Melissa that works there. That was SOOOO awesome of her. Then i went to work and wanted to kill my manager. lol

So yea , today was nice minus the part about hanging out with negative nancy. hardy har har
goodnights.

Ah good vs evil

Wed, 08 Sep 2004 02:27:48 GMT

So yea, my weekend had its ups and downs.

I ended up driving to Whitwal (sp) sat for a party at a guy named Wades house. Hes best friends with Zane. I thought this party would actually bring me and Zane closer together but instead it made me never want to speak with him again. He was such a dickhead to me and made several lude comments to every one about me. It hurts to see another side of someone that you actually cared about. Some interesting things did happen at the party though,. I got to see a guys peirced penis. It looked horribly painful, yet very interesting.heh. Too bad the guy wasnt that cute. He said he lived in Red Bank too. Hopefully we never come across each other.lol. I also got to meet Wade and talk to him a bunch. Hes a pretty neat guy. Very nice, Likes my sister :)

When i left "fucked up zane" turned and looked at me and said Loose my number , fuck face.

Yea hes a dick.

So i stayed the night with hunter, Three girls in a small bed sucked but owell.
Work sucked the next day./ I was running o n 4 hours of sleep.

When i got off work i came home. My mother had a talk with me and i left in tears. Lets just say im gonna be changing a few things. bleh

I went to meet ...Zane. I know, im stupid. He apologized to me and stuff. We went wih Wade to the spaceship house and signal point. I LOVE that place. Its so beautiful. Zane waws fucked up yet again. So by the end of the night i was an emotional wreck. I was highly pissed and upset. Im never talking to that bastard again.

I stayed the night at Hunters again.
We watched funny porn and weird secretary movies. It was actually quite funny. I passed out a couple of times thanks to the lack of sleep the night before. I slept wonderfully. We wok eup in the morning and went to hunters dad where we watched The Girl Next Door. I only got to see half but left so yea, i gotta see the rest.

my week will be wonderful tho.

Oh yea, penis talk with brad pitt MEOW~!

Wed, 08 Sep 2004 02:00:38 GMT

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Thu, 02 Sep 2004 16:49:06 GMT

Another day of school..
It was rather boring.
I did see alot more people from Red Bank like Jennifer Cox and ashley pirkle.
That was really the only interesting thing tho.
I did realize that my math class is total bullshit. I didnt take any notes or anything because the stuff they are doiing in there is SO EASY. I swear i learned it when i was in middle school. :/ Owell i guess.

I still havent gotten my id or decal yet. Stupid scholarship thing.

I was happy this morning when i woke up.
14 missed phone calls. Heh. Like 6 of them were from ThOmAs.

well rach is on her way here to eat lunch. Have a nice evenin.

Yawn

Wed, 01 Sep 2004 19:35:59 GMT

so yea, college is neat.
it sucks waking up so early though.
All my classes seem pretty easy minus all the speeches.

I saw the movie garden state. I love movies like that. I thought it was a really neat movie. Zack Braff from Scrubs wrote and directed it. I thought that was kinda cool. I also loved Natalie Portmans character. Shes one of my favorite actresses. Anyhoo all of u should see it.

I feel like im starting to get sick. My body is hurting and feels kind of sore. My heads hurts too. Maybe i just need more sleep or something.

Summer Is over.

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 02:25:39 GMT

Well my summer was a nice one.
I did alot of new things and met some cool people.

Tomorrow i start college.
Im not excited but yet again i am.
Im ready to meet new people i guess.

I havent updated in a while although alot of stuff has been going on..

This last week was practically spent with Corey. My lovely friend has gone off to MTSU. Makes me sad.
He called me today and talked about how cool it was. Made me sad again.
I hope to go up there and visit him sooooooN!

Saturday i got to hang out with the lovely HUNTER. He tried to "blow me off" but no, he came anyways. It was nice to eat and talk with him again.
After eating at waffle house we all gathered outside and sat in the parking lot goofing off and tallking listening to DEATH METAL.lol
My friend Zane came and picked me up. I LOVE ZANE!
He moved to Nashville two weeks ago, so it was nice to see him again. He picked me up in his moms Beemer. Ah , it wass nice.
We just drove around and looked at pretty houses and raced some cars (SCARY AS HELL) in brainerd.
I can't wait to see him again. Hes wonderful.

So yea, everyone have a good night and wish me luck in college :)

U all should come eat breakfast with me as well. All my classes are morning ones. :/

<3 amandas

And this is how you are...

Mon, 16 Aug 2004 02:13:13 GMT

So yea, Charleston is quite nice. we didnt get blown away from any hurricane which is nice. It just made this place dreary and sad looking.

Alot of great stuff has been happeneing lately for me. Ive been spending time with my cousins ive never been close to. Its been a lovely time. Adam is my older cousin. Hes gay and his boyfriend is David. ive been spending a lot of time with them. Today david read my cards. (tarot cards that is) That man is absolutely incredible and so unique. I love just talking to him because he has so much to say. Hes into the whole astrology thing. When he read my cards, i though t it was neat. He got everything right on the money. Its like he had been secretly watching me grow up and was inside my head every second of every day. He knew my emotions i guess u could say. During the card reading session, he had a card and it meant like "shy one" or what not. And that exactly how i see myself. He let me know that it would be better for me to start opening up a little more and recognize my emotions more often instead of just keeping them in for no one to know.It was crazy. If he ever decides to come to chattanooga im definitely going to make my friends get their cards read. It opened my eyes alot. Im not sure just how to explain it but its just crazy.

Last night i stayed at my cousin Brandies house. Shes such a cool girl. I look up to her in so many ways. Shes done good for herself. Shes a nurse and shes still going to college at age 28 to get her masters degree. Shes dating a Surgeon named Shane who im sure is very cool.

Im glad ive gotten to spend some of my vacation time here in Charleston with family. Its helped me open my eyes to a few things. When i get back to chatt. i may seem different. I hope to be diffferent anywyas....in a better way different. I mean, im NOT a bad person at all, theres just some things that are important in my life and ive realized i need to work more to make those important things work. Like college for instance./... I WILL be a teacher. I know this, i just need to work a little bit harder. I know i can be a teacher. I just need to niot be so lazy and work hard so i can teach your kids some day. :)
Since ive been here, these Airforce graduates have tried persuading me into joining. I honestly think i could make it in the airforce. I mean, 1/2 my family and relatives were in it and it changed their lives. But i dont think the airforce, or any military is for me. I can get through college just fine with out it.

Another thing i remembered about the card reading is, David asked me if i torture myself by asking myself questions. I do. I do all the time. I need proof, i need it on paper . Thats just how i am. And he also asked me if i sometimes write people off when i first meet them , like if i think they are preppy or something. I do that too. This is one thing about myself i will change. Everyone in the world has something in them, whether its somethiong you like, or not, they all carry something with them. That doesnt make them any greater or any lesser of a person than anyone. I guess i just need to come to realize this. Usually when i meet someone and i think they are snobby, i wont even try or want to start up a conversation with them. I need to be more open minded about things in this nature. It might help me in some sort of way long down the road. David also wants me to start meditating. He says it will definitely make me feel better and have a better attitude about things.
Hes proabably right. The last thing we talked about was the fact that i hold so much in. Like if im angry at someone, i dont let them know. i just act like it never happened when im actually really upset inside. He told me i should start telling people how i feel. There are only certain lines that shouldnt be crossed, and if those lines get crossed, i neeed to say something so it doenst happen again.
We all only live once so why not take the time to think a little differently for once. It might help. it might not do much of anything.

Hmm, i hope this post isnt too weird for you people, although i wouldnt care anyways :)

By the way, i went shopping today at the Charleston Markets and i got 3 really neat rings. Im thinking of them as like friendship rings. I got one for rach. I just appreciate everthing shes ever done for me.Weve been friends for so long and i just love that girl to death. Im giving the other one to my sister. She is my best friend, she has no choice but to be there for me all the time. :) Although a ring isnt much, i thought they might like it. so yea..

I love and miss u all chattanoogans. I will be home soon. I want to hang out with all you bitches before college starts. eeee im excited.
<3 Have a gorgeous night all.

mY past week.

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 02:11:45 GMT

So yea, these last few weeks of summer have been nice.
I went to Marta's Farmfest. It was neat. So many people i didnt know. All from Man Vs Tree. Some very cute. Anyways. Drunkeness and highness was fun.

This week ive been at Pawleys Island,Sc with Marta,Laura, and Tiff. Its been AMAZING.
when i get back home i will definiately have to write about all my adventures and such. Im sitting at my aunts house in Charleston,SC. Im scared of the HURRICANE. They say it might come STRAIGHT for charleston, so yea....

My aunt Linda and uncle Lee live in Brooksville Florida so i HOPE and pray they are ok. Plus i know my ex's parents live in Sarasota,and i saw the hurricane went right past that town. Its so scary. Ive been sittin here all day watching the weather channel. Arg

Im coming back home Tues. Im excited. I miss everyone. I need to see Marta again b4 she leaves for Iowa too.

Everyone have a lovely night and stay away from the hurricane :)
<3 manadas

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Sat, 07 Aug 2004 05:33:18 GMT

well in 5 hours i leave for the beach with Murda,Tiff,Bam, and Laura.
Im super excited.

Tonight i said goodbye to Jeromy....yet again. We hadnt spoken much since tonight. That kid rox . Im gonna miss him.

Owell.
Everyone be safe this week and tell me how much ur gonna miss meh :)

ZZZZzzzzz
<3 amandas

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